public speaking

i am ridiculously busy this week taking a class on public speaking for work. two words for you: no likey. tomorrow i get to give a 20 minute presentation in front of the class on a topic of my choice. i chose to speak about the group above . . . should be interesting . . .

salt lake, here i come!

i leave this afternoon for salt lake city . . . i haven't been home in several years. although i'll only be gone for a few days - most of which will be spent working - i'm excited to see family and friends at a big bash tomorrow night. and to see how much the city has grown since i moved away ten years ago. any suggestions on where i should eat while there? i still have my favs, but i know lots of new places have popped up over the last few years . . .

image from destination 360.

i am a chicken shit

i am so thoroughly disappointed in myself.

despite the incredibly empowering decision i made last month to quit my job, i am staying. inside my head, i'm kicking and screaming, trying to talk my logical self into realizing that this job is absolutely murdering my will to live. with each and every un-stimulating moment i spend glued to the computer, this job is eroding my intelligence. pleeeeeease quit! pleeeeeeeeease!

yet, my logical mind prevails. sure, we can afford for me to not work for a little while, but what if i can't find another job? i have been looking steadily for several months, and haven't had a single nibble. not-a-one. apparently, the portland market is one of the five worst in the nation for finding a job right now. and a job that pays the nearly 80k i make now? yeah, not so much.

i don't want to be this logical person. i want to live carefree. i want to disregard the bills and the loans, and do what makes me happy. isn't that what life is about, after all? not real life. real life sometimes means doing what you don't want to do so that one day, you'll be able to do what you want to do. i'm just tired of waiting for that one day. and scared that it may never get here.

today is the tomorrow

i haven't been the best blogger lately. i've been busy at work with the rikki road relaunch - still not sure when its going to happen, but i've been a-workin' hard-all-the-livelong-day. :P

i read this quote today and thought it so perfectly described where i am lately . . .

"remember -- today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday"
- dale carnegie

and the cycle continues.

sick day

i'm home sick today. i slept in until 11. amazing. but being home all day has made me wonder - am i doing the right thing to leave my job? i don't know. i don't think that either answer is the right answer.

i don't have to decide today. all i have to do today is burrow myself under the covers, and listen to the plump rain drops crash against the roof. how wonderful is that?

the photo above was taken by the hubs. he thinks i look beautiful when i sleep.

in the works

i'm a little preoccupied right now . . . i have a couple of things in the works.

i'm planning on putting myself out there on friday . . . i'm also in the process of updating the business side of the house . . . stay tuned.

bugger

well, i didn't get the new job. i'm bummed, but i think i'd prepared myself for it because i hadn't heard from the company at all. its a little scary, given that i'm down to a matter of weeks at the current job, but its all going to work out. right?

i did it.

i gave notice yesterday. as of june 1st, i will no longer be working for the man. it was a daunting letter to write, but one that had to be written. wish me luck.

i really need a new job

scratch that. i need a new career.

i am a smart, well-educated woman. and i have the student loans to prove it. my current job leaves me wanting more. much more. and i'm not talking money. i make decent money. i'm willing to take a pay cut to find a job that stimulates, interests and challenges me. i have none of those things at my current job. which is very sad, considering where i work.

and i have found THE job. scratch that. THE career. its a match made in heaven. the random combination of skill sets and educational requirements for this job seem to be derived right from my resume. its in the alternative energy sector, so it meets my goal to break into the green market. the job is 15 minutes from my house, and as an added bonus, the hubs works just four blocks from this new job, so we could meet up for lunch.

the only problem is (and its a biggie) - they don't seem interested. i've submitted my resume, followed up, sent a letter of intent, references, etc. nada. nothing. zip. zero. i'm really bummed because i've been looking for a job for about a year now, and i kept telling myself the reason that nothing was panning out was because i hadn't found the perfect job yet. now i have. but it feels out of reach.

must. be. patient.